As an empath, I struggle in certain energetic situations. It isn't always large crowds. It could be one specific person that is negative or "throws" their energy around (or at you). Some days it feels like I am not meant to exist in a social world and would rather hole up in my bedroom. Since that isn't exactly an option (though I am working on it), I have learned that I needed a practice of energetic protection and cleansing (beyond Reiki).
To protect myself from everyone else's unwanted "crap" I have a little thing I do in the morning. My teacher taught me her protection and I modified it a little for myself. I see myself enveloped with light. Literally enveloped. My teacher suggested seeing a light surrounding myself but I find it easier to almost picture a sleeping bag that I step into and pull it over me like a hood. I picture it made of light. I mostly picture white light but some days it has been purple or more golden. I let me intuition guide me. I set the intention that this light will protect me from (I literally say this) everyone else's sh*t, keep my shit from them, and to only let love and light through. That's all I do.
Then after I am home from work I cleanse myself with Palo Santo spray I made from the essential oil. I have this 2 oz glass spray bottle that I filled a quarter of the way up with witch hazel (to distribute the oil evenly), 12 drops of palo santo oil, and the rest with distilled water. I shake it when I get home and spray all over myself.
I hope this helps any other empaths out there exist in the crazy energy of the world! Feel free to pass along any of your rituals to help others!
I love to look at myself. Well, hmmm. Scratch that. I love to improve myself. That starts with a good hard look in the mirror. No matter what, knowing where you are is the first step.
The second step is knowing where you want to go. I have known I have wanted to speak to a large audience for a while now but I have been struggling with the exact way to do it. I decided I wanted to start a YouTube channel. (It isn't private but I am not advertising it right now. ) I thought that perhaps if I started a little show I would get used to speaking to people (even if it isn't live) and having to form thoughts out loud for an audience. I thought it would be good experience and maybe I would even get good at it and it might go somewhere (though, YouTube star is certainly not the goal).
I am on my third episode. It is surprisingly hard to edit these videos. . . at least on the YouTube site. At this point, that's what I've got and where I'm starting. What I am getting at is though I thought I had all of this funny content about my opinions of the world and how ridiculous I sometimes find people. I meant it strictly for comedic value. So I made an outline and I recorded a video last week. It forced me to really look at myself and my opinions and I realized, I sounded like a terrible person. All I was talking about was how some people get all of the luck and I end up on the short end of the stuck (not true) and how people drive me crazy with their selfish-ness (I was sounding pretty selfish myself). I sounded like a b*tch that just complains. But that isn't me? How could that be me? I'm all love and light, damnit! I've worked hard to get here!
Well, it most certainly was me. (Actually I got with some of my friends later in the week and released the junk that was coming up but this isn't to get into the energy work side of this story.) And I needed that reality check. I needed to look myself in the mirror and say, "is something triggering this? Is this stuff that's coming up even mine?"
I guess what I'm saying is it happens to the best of us. It's okay to get a wake up call as long as you answer it.
I'm just sitting here enjoying my frozen blueberries thinking about how lucky I am right now. I am home early from my "real" job. I already worked out (I'm not doing The Ultimate Yogi anymore). Our front door is wide open to let in the beautiful weather. And I have a computer to express myself. I might need some more blueberries.
Long ago I decided that I had figured out the meaning of life. I decided this when I was in college and spent a lot of time intoxicated. While I don't need to self medicate myself anymore, I still think I was right. I had decided that the meaning of life was "candy coatings." What the hell does she mean by that? Well, if you hadn't already figured it out, I am ready and raring to tell you.
Candy coatings are those moments where you are sitting fully in love. The easiest way for me to get into that place is to sit with my boyfriend on our screened-in porch with a cup of coffee made from freshly ground beans and whitened with unsweetened almond milk on a day where I don't have to go to "work." In that moment I am pure happiness. I am able to stay in the moment and just feel happy. To be love.
That is why I believe that candy coatings are the meaning of life. I believe we are all working toward feeling that way all the time. Working toward complete contentment with our life and our existence and just being in this world. So on that note I wish you lots of candy coatings and love until next time.
You would think I would start my blog off with a post about myself. Well, that is just not how I do things. If you are interested in learning more about me and what I do click here. Instead I am going to talk about the Ultimate Yogi challenge I have been doing.
I purchased the Ultimate Yogi program years ago. I was working out very seriously at the time. I was doing P90X, Insanity, and training for a marathon. . . all at once. If you don't know what P90X and Insanity are, they are at home workout programs by Beachbody. Look them up, they're actually very good. But they are no joke and I was spending a good portion of my day working out. Surprisingly, I aggravated an old knee injury and after my long run on a Saturday couldn't put weight on my left leg on a Sunday. I was pretty limited so I starting exploring yoga again. Bikram yoga had healed my knees years before. . . well, healed might be a strong word considering I did injure them again. . . and made it so I was able to run again. I also wanted something serious, and the Ultimate Yogi seemed serious. I did try it when I first bought it. The practices themselves are about 70 minutes, plus 20 minutes of an ab routine 3 days a week, PLUS meditation (10, 20, or 30 minutes). I suppose it isn't too surprising that it was easy for me to find plenty of excuses not to take that much time out of my day to do this and could never really complete more than 2 weeks the times I tried to do the program. It only took me 5 years to come back to it, but here I am.
The program is 108 days long, broken into 3 chunks. Each chunk has a different rotation of DVDs, longer meditation time than the last, and ends with a session of more and more sun salutations. I am 35 days in. Tomorrow is the last day of the first "segment." I missed a few days because I was very sick and I decided to just push it off instead of trying to double up on these super long workouts. I started it with the intention of finishing exactly before we leave for Cancun. I have been working out regularly and just have a final 10 lbs I would like to lose before I have to wear a bathing suit in public! I didn't want to force it off and I thought this would be a good way to slowly take it off through being mindful and restoring my body from the tough workouts and running I had been doing.
I really love this program. It's hard. I'm currently working two jobs and trying to get my reiki business off the ground so my free time is certainly limited. It isn't easy setting aside that much time in my day. It has become so grounding for me. My work place doesn't aggravate me like it has. I can be calmer and better at my job. I am a better and more patient person. I am truly starting to love my life. I also feel like I am able to tap into my intuition better and receive messages from my higher self. I feel better at allowing and not fighting the world. My flexibility has improved. And fast! And dramatically. Not even a third of the way in!
I cannot wait to see what the next DVDs are like and what else happens next!