Long time no speak. I have actually be doing A LOT of writing. Just not publicly. I realized that was silly.
So I tried Rolfing today. Wow, I couldn’t have had a different impression. I don’t think I have ever felt so wrong about something that I had researched that much as I did in that moment. I’ve been interested in Rolfing since at least 2011. I had intense knee issues. In fact, one morning I just couldn’t put weight on them when I got out of bed. I crawled to the freezer to get out the ice packs. Crawled to the living room. Crawled on the couch. Stacked some pillows for my feet and did not move for like 20 hours. I slept there. Luckily things were better in the morning.
But I limped for months. I went to the orthopedic surgeon. This was the second that I’ve been to. I guess technically third but second for my knees. He was as big of an asshole as the previous one. He sent me to PT. My knees progressively got worse and the insurance actually stopped approving more sessions. My last few were pretty much ultrasound and massage. But that massage. Wowza. That was really effective. I had never felt such relief in my life. And so quickly. It was insanely painful but the knots were being released. I started looking more into bodywork and found Rolfing. I was intrigued but was never close, motivated, or wanted-to-give-up-drinking-to-afford-it enough to do it.
Fast forward to today. I finished a pretty intense workout scheduled and was having shoulder and knee issues issues again. I found a guy in Burlington and scheduled the appointment for the Monday after we finished that schedule. He was ready to go before my scheduled time which was impressive. We talked a lot about my injuries and life so far. A lot more about traumatic memories than I expected. Then he had me walk around. Stand on each foot, blah blah while he looked at my body. It was surprisingly less weird than I had expected having this guy study my body and its motions. Then he moved some organs around. Oh and watched me squat. A lot. He even did some holding my organs while I squatted.
He also did some table work. I’d lie on my back and he’d poke around for tender things and move my arm. I could feel the tenderness go away. It was similar to the trigger point therapy my chiropractor used to do but so much less pain. In all reality, I felt very little pain or even discomfort the entire time. I thought it was tissue massage that was on fascia so tight it couldn’t help but hurt. But this is not what it was at all.
Then I stood up and he watched me walk around. I did some squats. Did I mention I did a lot of squats. I feel like this was 2 of 5 times that I had to squat. Then we went back to the table work and ringed again. He had me try the same things as before but with an eye covered or with an ear covered and thinking about happy things (the waves of Lake Ontario). There was totally a difference in how my body moved when he changed those variables.
He kept saying he wouldn’t let me fall, blah blah, but I don’t usually ever think about that. It’s just my inability to relax. Mentally I think I’m relaxed. It’s actually very frustrating. I should mention that. Not in a critical way but in a, hey, maybe you can help me do that. Help my brain make the pathway of relaxation. Since we’re working on these other pathways.
So yeah, my homework is to take some time to do things with my left eye covered and my left ear plugged. I don’t know if I feel amazing, but I feel like this guy knows something about the human body and I would like to know what that is.