To all men, you may want to close this window if you aren’t man enough to hear about “gurl stuff.” To all the ladies, sorry if this is TMI.
Its that time of the month again and here I am wondering why I want to cry. I feel like I make so much progress moving forward (and remember this is still the hormones talking) only to all of a sudden feel like the biggest failure ever. I’m sitting in the dark watching the Kardashians wishing I had a talk show and could have a career as a model feeling completely tearful. And every month I go through this. I feel completely halted in my side businesses because I just can’t deal with them or anything extra. And on top of all this, I can’t work out right now due to very damaged toes. Trust me, I tried. The pressure is not worth it. And I wonder why I have the nerve to think I can start a business of my own.
But then I remember that everything we go through is to benefit our purpose. Maybe I will have a client one day whom I can assist with their hormonal issues. Maybe I’m about to learn something that will help other women. Or maybe I’m just supposed to find ways to heal myself so that this doesn’t plague me when I’m in the middle of my true calling and in the real work I’m here to do. It’s not my job to predict. Just be.
Who knows what the future will bring but for today I’m gonna give myself a break and just be. I’m going to allow this to wash over me and keep my eyes and ears open to what the universe is trying to teach me. And cry. I’m definitely going to cry.