I'm very excited to find myself with some time to work on my blog. I've been spending a lot of time teaching Essential Oils classes, focused on developing my Reiki practice, and working on Jody's cooking stuff that I haven't found much time to do this. I can't wait until I am working full-time on only what I love and can make time for this regularly. I love to write. I feel compelled to write. When we hiked the 46 high peaks in the Adirondacks I really wanted to share that story with everyone. Boyfriend and I sold his college bar and then just randomly started hiking some seriously challenging mountains. It was a pretty crazy adventure and I just felt like I had something to share. It wasn't that I didn't have the time or didn't want to write about it. It was that I focused on doubting myself. I focused on the voice in my head that told me that no one cares about the blurbs we write about going up a mountain.
I'm not sure I was wrong about our hiking stuff. But what I think it could have done was made me a better writer. What it could have done was make me used to admitting that I love to write and being vulnerable in front of people. What it also could have done was lead me into something else to write about. What I do know is that not writing was not the answer.
Why do we criticize ourselves so much? Why are we do hard on ourselves? Why do we not follow our gut when it says to do something. This actually (oddly enough unintentionally) brings my back to Wayne Dyer. I borrowed his CD set "Making the Shift" and have been listening to it in the car. He talks about animals and how they don't do anything, they just are. He talks about a bumble bee that just is a bumble bee. No one tries to make it anything else. In contrast, us humans do all sorts of things that we are not inspired to do. And we know in our gut it's wrong! We feel it! I feel it every day when I go to work. I don't hate my job. Jody corrects me all the time and he's right. I don't. There are a LOT of things I really love about my job. But I feel in my gut that I have a different "dharma" . . . there is something else that I am meant to be.
I challenge you to every day try to listen in to your intuition more. I'm not going to tell you to up and quit your job. I mean, if you have the guts to do that. . . DO IT! Maybe you're inspired to start a blog. Maybe you're inspired to call someone out of the blue. . . it doesn't have to be something hard. And it doesn't have to be about a life path. But maybe if you open up that line of communication with your intuition or higher self you will get more and more guidance. If you're someone looking to live your divine purpose, you may find that as this line of communication opens up and you follow your heart more you will find yourself one day full of passion and purpose for something you would have never thought. Next thing you know, you'll be living a full life of purpose.