I don't know what to say but I also want to say something. I enjoy writing every day because something new comes out of me each time I do it. The blog starts writing itself and each time I'm in awe of it.
I had a cool realization yesterday doing an exercise for a class-ish thing I'm doing. The assignment I was tasked with was talking for 30 minutes into a voice recorder and just letting things come out. In doing that, I realized that I was giving my fiance the advice I was really giving myself. He's trying to make a relatively life changing decision and I keep saying, "I do not want you to do this for me. You need to figure out what you want to do. I will support you either way."
That advice wasn't for him. That was for me. When I try to make a decision of that caliber, all I do is try to figure out what he wants me to do. Then I'm frustrated when I don't like my decision. This also has NOTHING to do with him. Sometimes I put words in his mouth and act based on how I *think* he wants me to act without him saying anything at all.
That's really short but I don't think anything else needs to be said. Try the 30 minute exercise. You might be surprised what you learn about yourself.